Something Borrowed

The other day i came across this movie called 'Something Borrowed'. This movie was basically about standing up for yourself. Putting yourself first before others. Worrying about your own happiness before others. In the film there is Rachel who is best friends with Darcy and has always stood aside in order for Darcy to be happy. Only when love comes into the picture does she realize she has been putting others happiness before hers her whole life. This got me thinking...How many of us have missed on a chance of love, a promotion at work, or even some small event that could have changed our lives? All of this because we were too afraid to speak up and stand up for what we want. I struggle to write this due to the fact I have missed out on some incredible opportunities because of this. Only in the past couple years have I realized/learned to think about me. Worry about my happiness and others happiness will follow. Now I am not saying to become self absorbed but no one is going to take care of you besides yourself. Truly take care of you and look out for you that is...

I Got You

I got you. I'm here for you. It's ok. It's going to be ok. When you're feeling alone. Feeling like you can't go on. Come here and stay a while. Need someone to sit with you and I mean just sit with you for a while. I got you. That's what i'm here for. A shoulder to cry on. Open arms await you. Feel the warmth and know it will be alright. We all have our moments. Moments of weakness, breakdowns and a sense that we just cannot go on. When those times arise and you are feeling this way....I'm here. Stay as long as you like. Stay until you feel life isn't so bad. Until you once again feel you can go on. I'm here. I'll always be here. "A place to crash. I got you. No need to ask. I got you. Just get on the phone I got you. Come and pick you up if i have to. I'm proud to say i got you." L.L.

Self Worth

Who do you see when you look at yourself in the mirror? Do you like what you see? When does one realize their self worth. Realize their true potential. Realize the value they offer to others and how to harness it. Some may realize this at an early age, while others need time to develop and mold themselves before this happens. The way we are raised is a key part of this. Ones self-esteem plays a huge part in feeling if you are worthy. Worthy of a better life, job, friends, lovers, town, etc..At time we get stuck. Stuck in a monotonous routine. Time goes by so quickly and we wake up to realize so much has been missed. So much time has been wasted. I have been blessed in my life to have those around me with constant encouraging words. Pushing me to become better, become more than I think I could be. Some would say I live a semi-charmed kind of life. I on the other hand would say I have been blessed with an incredible network of people/family that has been there for me. Prove to yourself that you matter. Tell yourself that you matter. At the end of the day you are the only one who can analyze and change yourself. Society tends to push us into counseling and give us the need we cannot do things without others. We can. You can. You are worth so much more than you think you are.

Pay It Forward

I've never truly realized the power of being there for others. I myself have always been one to go the extra mile for another. Some may call me a push over, while others would call it genuine love for another/mankind. Tough times have hit lately so friends and strangers have been pouring in with open arms, love, hugs, helping hands, etc...Being one that seriously loves to help and be there for another. I sure am not accustomed to receiving this type of treatment in return. As of late I have realized it is OK to receive help from another. People are here on this earth to help one another. To educate and better ourselves and to pay it forward.

Beautiful People

Why is that people assume if you are good looking or beautiful, life is easy? The lives of these people are just the same as everyone else. The only difference is that these select few were blessed with incredible genes. I know a few people that are stunning. If you look at them one would think they are soo lucky to have those genes. The thing is that yes they are lucky to look like that, but they could also have the same struggles you do if not worse. We should all give consideration. Take a step back and think about it. Everyone has problems in this world. Whether big or small, everyone has a moment where things do not go right.

Sunday Brunch

This past Sunday i was invited to an impromptu brunch. It turned out to be a small group of 8 single guys and a couple. Each and everyone of them unique in their own way. Each and everyone of them gay in their own way. It was pretty incredible. The ironic thing was that just the other day I was talking to my sham Alison about how to work on being more gay. What a better way to do so than on Sunday brunch with a group of incredible, interesting and just really cool gay guys. The cool part of this brunch was that it was a combination of friends of our gracious host who wanted to combine all his good friends me through his short time of living in West Hollywood. Everyone brought something to contribute to the party and of course as I LOVE Mimosa's on a Sunday or as one of crazy east coast buddies calls them. Sipping on some Shampipples. All the food was prepared and then we began to introduce ourselves and figuring out how everyone knew the host. This one guy we'll call Abercrombie came in with his boyfriend Fitch. Abercrombie was a total delight. Asking how i know the host and who brought me and such. My friend I went with who we'll call papi chulo use to date my best friend banker. Banker and papi chulo are no longer together and it was interesting how everyone was suprised i could be such good friends with a best friends ex. We are all adults here so why not. Anywho brunch ensues. Drinking Ensues and the consumption on delicious food. Conversation is flowing and just a good time. After about an hour the brunch turns into a shot dessert party. It was pepper schanpps, chocolate syrup and whip cream. Idea was you have to sit in a chair stick your tounge out. Pour Chocolate syrup on your tounge, take the shot and then open wide to be filled with whip cream. I Know, I know sounds like trouble. It was totally fun and the combination of the three left a most pleasant taste in your mouth. Needless to say the participants were all feeling pretty good after. After a few minutes the real show starts. The tony awards comes to Casa De Homo. Two guys burst into song and start acting out the production of 'Avenue Q', 'Rent', and a touch of 'Dream Girls' of course...Anywho it turned into 3 performing in front of a small VIP audience that just LOVED every part of it. I had a chance to get to know some pretty interesting and amazing people. The song and dance was AMAZING. It seriously did feel like we were at the tony awards. Also, I felt like I was going to just get up and burst out in song myself. A few songs come on and one is finding it very difficlut to fight the allure of song and dance. Although I did a great job of doing so. Even with the performers egging me on to complete the group. We could have called ourselves Gayasia the Gay N'Syn or Desitny's Gay Child.

Perpetually Single

Why are some individuals perpetually single? Why am I perpetually single? These are two questions i still have yet to figure out. At times we all love being single. Being single is pretty incredible. Although there are most definitely those times I wish there was another around. Someone to tell a crazy story to. Someone to come home to.

This Guy

There is this guy I met recently. Wanting to take things so slow, do things right and see where it goes this time. I usually fall pretty hard and never really let it show. Everyone including my close friends always feel the other guy is completely smitten when it's actually me. I just am a fool for love or the prospect of love i guess...This got me thinking about my dating life. The past year I was on a roll. Date after date after date just looking to settle down and do it up with someone immediately. Never really wanting to go through those beginning stages of dating. Always wanting to jump right in the middle of a relationship instead. This year I vowed to myself to do things differently. Get my life situated and find some solid direction in my life. If a guy comes along and a date ensues then so be it. Wanting to take things slow and just be in the moment. Truly enjoy those moments in the beginning. Well Who knows what may come of this. Come what may...All I know is right now I'm smiling...