Sometimes

Some days I just don’t know. Sometimes I’m lost. Somehow I find my way. There are those times where I feel completely alone. Afraid of my future. Afraid of what is going to happen next. I wonder…why do I feel this way? Will these feelings ever change? Years go by and I get older. Years go by and I become wiser. The one thing that remains the same are my thoughts about love. My feelings about romance. Some days, I am so sure. Other days, I am just so lost. So unsure of what it is I really want. I try to always go with the flow. I try to take life as it come. “Roll with the punches,” as they say. When someone ask do I know what I really want my answer depends on the day. It all depends how I feel. Sometimes I am full of thoughts. I can express myself so well. Explain what it is that I want in such detail. Sometimes I fumble with my words. Trying to say what it is I want. I never use to feel like this. Ever since you left I just don’t know. I use to know so well. Now without you here I just don’t…

Missing You

“I don’t know how to be something you’d miss.” I remember that night. Remember like it was just yesterday. You told me you loved me. So why did you go, away? I never thought we would end like this. I never thought we would ever have our last kiss. What I would give to be able to push you away again. What I would give to hold you again. I stay in touch with our circle of friends only to inquire how you are. I remember the day you came to my door. So nervous yet excited. I saw it in your eyes. You told me you loved me. I thought this would last forever. I never thought you would change your mind. I use to think one day we would tell the story of us. I guess that is all in the past. I hope you’re doing well. I still hope one day you will realize you wish you hadn’t left. I guess these feelings will always be with me. I will move on, but I know I will always miss you…

Perfect Date/Relationship

We all dream of the perfect date. A few of us have written several variations on our online dating profiles…When we finally get that ‘perfect date’ it is completely surreal. An incredible feeling that you seriously can get caught up and lost in. Very few of us truly express ourselves and say what we really want from another, a potential mate, what were looking for. When we finally meet someone that expresses themselves as much as ourselves, it is refreshing. It feels like we have finally met someone we can see something real with. Although there are those small deal breakers, we hope that in time compromise and communication will fix those things. Talking to a friend the other day we got pretty in depth of what each of us are looking for in another. Figuring and questioning whether either one of us are ready for a partner. Whether we truly want a partner at this point in our lives. It is always interesting to hear what your friends think of you. What they feel you want in another. Whether they think you are ready for something serious or not. This conversation got my mind going all night and this morning when I woke up. I wonder at times…Will I ever find that special someone.

Have you...

Have you ever dated someone for a short period of time, but really felt connected and you cannot figure out why. Even though the two of you are no longer together, there is still something. Something that makes you wonder how they are. Wonder what they are making of their lives. All romantic feelings are null and void yet you still care. Still wanting them to know you are there for them. This a feeling that is pretty unexplainable. Especially for a type of person that prides themselves in never getting truly attached. Always able to overcome/getting over the adversities in life. Something to think about. Why is it that we are so afraid of showing our weaknesses? What we consider a weakness others consider a strength or a way to grow stronger. Why is that?...