Never Told You...Missing You

I never told you how incredible you were. I never told you how much I admired you. The passion you had for such things. The drive you had was incredible. I never told you how thankful I am to have known you. How lucky I felt for you to have come into my life. I never told you what I have should have said. I kept all these things inside. Held them in. All of those times I knew I could come to you for anything. Even if it was just to listen. The greatest moments I cherished were when we use to just sit together on the roof top. We would stare up into the stars in complete silence and contentment. Nothing else in the world mattered and those were the best of times. Without saying a word we said so much. There is so much I miss. So much I wish I would have told you. Today I am missing you. Today I wish you were here. Today I need you here. You were the only one I could truly talk to. The only that truly knew me and truly understood me. You left too soon. Departed to early. I will forever miss you…

Fear

“Too often fear immobilizes people.” Fear is something that holds us back. Prevents our dreams from becoming a reality. Our lives are ever changing. One cannot predict what is going to happen from one moment to the next. Why let fear stand in our way? One can never really know what their future holds. What will happen and is going to happen, if they let fear control the outcome. We must keep marching on and fight through our fears. The outcome could be fantastic…

Somteims it just feels right

There are certain people you just keep coming back to. A certain someone that no matter what you can’t stop thinking about them. Randomly they pop in your head. Sometimes it’s hard to think about them. Sometimes it just feels so right. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. Sometimes you have to let go to find out if there is something there. Sometimes you have to go through a little pain to truly appreciate what you have. Appreciate who you have in your life…

Sometimes you figure it out

“Sometimes beginnings aren’t so simple. Sometimes good bye is the only way. I was falling apart. Barely breathing with a broken heart, that’s still bleeding. I try my best to be guarded, but I’m an open book instead.” Moving on. Starting a new. A fresh start. It really is not easy. Even when we find someone new that we feel is better suited for us. We still think about the past. Those past loves. Past relationships. Past experiences. This is not because we wish we were with someone else. It is simply the fact that it takes time to move on. In pain there is healing. No one ever said it was going to be easy. No one ever said it was going to be hard. Growing up we are not taught what to do or how to deal with despair, when someone is breaking our hearts. As we grow up we learn ourselves. We teach ourselves. With each and every person we encounter in our lives we learn something new. Feel something different. An ever evolving feeling and learning experience. The only advice one can truly give another, is to be strong. Stay with it. Never give up. Everything in our lives happens for a reason. We just need to figure out what that reason is each time…

Birthday

So today is my birthday and it truly feels good to be here on this earth another year. On ones birthday everything is suppose to go incredibly smooth and just RIGHT. This got me thinking about a few things…Every year in our lives we celebrate the date of our birth. Living another year and appreciate what we have now, as compared to in the past. Every year we get older and sometimes wiser. This past year I learned a few things about myself. I have been put through the ringer regarding matters of the heart and learned to be more independent and self sufficient. My knowledge of self has grown tremendously. It is true that every year and every day we learn something new. Experience something different in our lives. Recently I have had a lot on my mind with matters of the heart and realizing where I really want to be. This year I know everything will come together…

Drama

Drama I often hear, people would rather do without. I hear other says they live a drama free life. Drama is something that most try to stay away from. For those who are blessed enough to have no drama in their lives sort of crave it. Search for little tid bits of drama. Never truly wanting to be involved. Although they still have that intrigue of what it is like. An experience that is foreign only to a select few. Through movies and television drama can be experienced. Through real life experiences this can happen as well. In speaking with a friend the other day about drama of course I began to wonder…Drama in some people’s lives is extraordinary. In order to have some sort of drive there is a drive. A passion and feeling that is so intense it creates a type of drama. Regarding relationships. Is it healthy to have a little drama in one? Is it unhealthy to have absolutely no drama in one? Every relationship (friends or lovers) needs a moment where feelings are expressed. Yes, these feelings and emotions can be expressed in less dramatic ways. Although what about those fights, debates and arguments. I truly believe every great, true and lasting relationship should have moments of intense emotion. This shows the other how you truly feel about them. Being blasé, chill, or calm all the time or never truly getting heated about anything is sort of ideal. It is not reality. Expressing oneself truly will result in a small tit for tat at times. At other times a huge blow up. These experiences remind us that we are alive. Remind us key elements about life and growing…